Today I lost track of time (mostly work time) and after finishing the day and putting my son to bed I completely threw work to the side and watched an indie movie. FYI – “I Like You” is good. However, now here I am into the next day time frame and I’ve really not gotten much done. I started to feel the tense pressure crawling over my neck and shoulders and I began to slouch in my chair.
I remembered this image I passed by and saved a while back (I really wish I could credit who made it). It struck a chord with me. Whenever I start to feel pressure from outside sources (work, family, friends..etc) I tend to forget that I AM in control, I forget who I am and what I want because others ideas and issues have transformed me into what they wanted.
Sometimes I am the clay to a friend who needs to mold me, in that moment, for their own use. Sometimes I’m molded and I never return to my original shape(s) and sometimes it takes a while to realize I haven’t gotten back to ME until I sit at my work desk and slowly get closer to the floor. Empathy can be draining and, at the same time, rewarding.
Who am I? Why am I doing exactly what I’m doing RIGHT now? What is its purpose?
Those questions can bring me back to my center. No pressure, just remember. Forget what you’ve internalized from work and the rest of life and remember who you are. What good things feel like, what makes you smile, what makes your heart beat out of your chest and what makes you look forward to tomorrow. What are you looking forward to?
Now, back to business…one thing at a time.
The Kind Gypsy 